26 September...Chunchu turned 4 :-) The last 4 years have been amazing with her. Motherhood is nothing short of a roller coaster ride. They say you experience emotional turmoil in love...but I have experienced such varied emotions being a mother that I do not even remember how life was before Chunchu and Shiku became a part of it. How beautiful is it to have someone love you the way no one else can...my children have shown me the true meaning of love and life. They love me despite my weaknesses and despite whatever anyone else feels for me. They don't feel anything but love for me...I wish it lasts forever! I know there will be times when during their growing up years, we will have arguments, difference of opinions and even fights sometimes, but I pray that the underlying love lives forever.
Chunchu is the symbol of immense joy in my life. If it was not for her, I probably would not have the desire to fight for my life that fateful night when I saw death so close. I still remember when I was being wheeled into the ICU, all I said to my husband was "take good care of my Chunchu." I had never known anything like what I felt then before. Of course, now both the children are a part of me that I am not ready to give up on this most wonderful aspect of my being...how much ever tough life gets, whatever it has in store for me.
Yesterday, the celebration went very well. Chunchu got very nice gifts from everyone...so many people dote on her! She was very happy. And most of them gave something to Shiku as well, to let him feel important too :-) Kids are so sweet...both of them were so pleased with the celebration, with that fact that we adults were trying to be children with them and we all had good fun. All of us wore little masks, scraped the cake from the plate directly, and basically let ourselves enjoy. I think if all adults could be more like kids several times during the day, how much simpler the life would be :-)
Whenever I think of the long time I have waited for Chunchu to be born, how many times I have prayed for her health and happiness; and how many times I have felt proud and grateful for her love, I feel nothing else matters. Chunchu is that ray of light which drives away all the darkness; she is that smile that wipes away all tears; and she is that joy that makes everything in life meaningful. I do not have words to describe what she means to me, but just that I am incomplete without her! (Actually, without Shiku too...but I will describe that in another post...after all this is for Chunchu).
This post is probably very emotional, but today I am overwhelmed...I thank God for giving me the joys of motherhood. And, I wish my kids grow up to be very good, strong, compassionate and loving people. May God grant them health, happiness and prosperity always.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Shiku's Innocence gives an Important Lesson
Shiku did something very sweet and innocent today, and I want to record it here.
He was playing with his toys...he took one plastic glass and covered and it and showed it to Manjusha saying, "Akku aasi(maasi), see tower!" Manjusha replied, "Baby only one thing cannot make it a tower, you have to put something on top of it for that." Now, what Shiku did next was amazingly nice...he took a piece of paper, and put it on top of his 'tower', with so much sincerity, as if that solved the problem. Of course, he did what he was asked to do...it's not his fault the instruction was not clear enough!
That got me thinking...isn't our mind exactly the same? And, aren't we giving it similar unclear instructions. For example, when I am in pain, I keep saying, "Oh God, I am having so much pain, I can't..." etc. Of when I want something, what do I say? "I wish I could have that...why don't I have it...why can't I..." etc. So, what does my mind understand? That I am in pain, I can't have something. So what does it do...it makes me feel the pain more. 'I can't have that thing I desire' gets written down into my mind! So what do I get?
I remember someone once said to me, "Our mind is like a computer. What you instruct it to do, that's what you get!" So, what should I instruct my mind to do?
I should perhaps try saying, "I am thankful that I have X and have the wisdom and will to work to get Y...". Many a times, it works. These days, I have observed this kind of thing working for small things...wishing for rain, or a clear sky, for small things troubling me to get resolved etc. Of course, I have to work a lot to think like that all the time...at least I have begun :-)
And, I wish Chunchu and Shiku keep reminding me such important lessons and of course, keep learning themselves :-)
He was playing with his toys...he took one plastic glass and covered and it and showed it to Manjusha saying, "Akku aasi(maasi), see tower!" Manjusha replied, "Baby only one thing cannot make it a tower, you have to put something on top of it for that." Now, what Shiku did next was amazingly nice...he took a piece of paper, and put it on top of his 'tower', with so much sincerity, as if that solved the problem. Of course, he did what he was asked to do...it's not his fault the instruction was not clear enough!
That got me thinking...isn't our mind exactly the same? And, aren't we giving it similar unclear instructions. For example, when I am in pain, I keep saying, "Oh God, I am having so much pain, I can't..." etc. Of when I want something, what do I say? "I wish I could have that...why don't I have it...why can't I..." etc. So, what does my mind understand? That I am in pain, I can't have something. So what does it do...it makes me feel the pain more. 'I can't have that thing I desire' gets written down into my mind! So what do I get?
I remember someone once said to me, "Our mind is like a computer. What you instruct it to do, that's what you get!" So, what should I instruct my mind to do?
I should perhaps try saying, "I am thankful that I have X and have the wisdom and will to work to get Y...". Many a times, it works. These days, I have observed this kind of thing working for small things...wishing for rain, or a clear sky, for small things troubling me to get resolved etc. Of course, I have to work a lot to think like that all the time...at least I have begun :-)
And, I wish Chunchu and Shiku keep reminding me such important lessons and of course, keep learning themselves :-)
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